“We need to regularly stop and take stock; to sit down and determine within ourselves which things are worth valuing and which things are not; which risks are worth the cost and which are not. Even the most confusing or hurtful aspects of life can be made more tolerable by clear seeing and by choice.”
It’s been a rough few months. It has. There is no other way to look at it. Pretending that it hasn’t is foolish.
I admit my guilt in what I did to make it worse.
I commend myself for looking for silver linings!
But I dwelled a lot on what has been taken from me.
And now I am remembering…. Remembering that I never know what is coming, what is around the bend in the road, and that nothing lasts forever.
I’ve talked about here that one of the things I like about being the age I am is that I can look back at my life and that even though there were some dark and even horrible times, it got better. Times got better. Much better.
Have I told this story before? Forgive me if I have, but heck, it’s a good story….
I knew someone who wanted to work for the city. He knew it would be a terrific spring board to better things. He was young and working for the government for awhile (maybe a decade or so?) could only do him good.
I those days you went down town and you took these tests—only one of them a typing test—which took hours, and when you were all done—it you passed—then you got three interviews with various branches in city government. If you didn’t get one of the three jobs, you had to start over again and take the tests again.
So my friend asked me to pray for him, because we both believed….
John 14:13-14: Whatever you ask in My name, that will I do, so that the Father may be glorified in the Son. If you ask Me anything in My name, I will do it.
Then my friend got his interviews. He was one of those people who interview well. We knew he would get one of those jobs. We knew it!
And he didn’t.
He was devastated. We prayed in Jesus’ name after all. We were told that if you ask Jesus anything in his name, it would be done.
“I feel like Jesus has slapped my in the face,” he told me.
I reminded him that we never know what’s waiting…and we have to trust.
Then a funny thing happen. My friend got a fourth interview—which you are never supposed to get.
So he went, he interviewed…and he got the job!
Now this is were the story really rocks.
A few weeks later Kansas City did the biggest layoff in the city’s history. People were let go in every single department by seniority…except for one.
The department where he was hired. Which was the water department and the only department that made its own money. The layoff didn’t affect them.
If my friend had gotten a job in any other department he would have lost his job.
And when we prayed? We prayed he would get a job with the city.
That is what happened.
Because “God” can see around the bend in the road—a thing we can’t do.
So I have to remember—I believe in leaping and nets appearing. It’s not something I pretend to believe in. I believe that “God” is in all things. I believe God can see around the bend in the road.
And so I must believe, can continue to believe, that “whether or not it is clear to [me], no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.”
For some reason it has taken far longer for me to get away from the Evil Job where I work, and at least a year longer for me to make my living from my writing.
But suddenly in the last weeks things, bit by bit, are lining up more and more.
I must remember that everything is happening as it should and that God can see around the bend in the road and will make what is best for me happen.
So I am very grateful that I am remembering what is important. That I believe, That I fully know that….
Mark 11:24: Therefore I say to you, all things for which you pray and ask, believe that you have received them, and they will be granted you.
Everything that I want is coming to me.
Exactly when it should.
photograph by ghouston from mourgeFile