Day 142 of 365 Days of Silver ~~ Grateful to be Depressed

whale by matthew hull

But Jonah ran away from the Lord and headed for Tarshish. He went down to Joppa, where he found a ship bound for that port. After paying the fare, he went aboard and sailed for Tarshish to flee from the Lord.
~~ Jonah 1:3, NIV

Today I’ve been depressed–couldn’t quite put my finger on why–but depressed.

And then it hit me. I know just why.

Ever heard the story of Jonah and the whale?

The story goes like this; Jonah has a purpose and that is to go to the city of Nineveh and teach them a better way–for they were wicked. He doesn’t want to. He’s afraid. So he flees and gets on a ship that takes him in the opposite direction. Then there is a horrible storm and soon it is clear he and everyone aboard will be lost. Jonah sees what is going on and tells the sailors to throw him overboard and the storm ends. But now he is the sea in the middle of nowhere and surely he will die. But then, on top of everything else, he is swallowed by a great fish (or whale depending on the translation). There is stays for three days and nights where he becomes ready to do what he is supposed to do. The fish vomits him on the beach of the very city of Nineveh. He enters and tells them they must all repent–and to his surprise they do and God spares the city.

There is a metaphysical meaning of course. And it’s this.

Jonah had a purpose. He tried to flee from it. So the Universe made worse and worse things happen until he finally accepted his fate–and then everything turned out all right.

This of course says that we all have a purpose. Something we are supposed to be doing. And when we fight it, things only get worse and worse and worse until we accept our purpose. Do what we were put on this Earth to do. And then things will all work out all right. We are a light bulb shining out. A violin playing a lovely song.

I am NOT supposed to be working where I am. Not anymore. And things keep getting worse and worse and worse and worse. It’s the Universe.

All right Ben. You won’t do what you are made to do? Then things will just get worse until you do. You need to do what you are always preaching. You need to do some BIG leaping. And trust the net will appear.

It’s clear to me that that is what is going on. That is why I am so unhappy. That is why the job is getting so horrible. I am not doing what I am supposed to be doing! It is really time to do some leaping.

So I updated my resume and it is time to do something with it.

And then–duh!–it suddenly occurred to me.

There is a Barnes and Noble less than two miles from my house….

Climbing the ladder…stepping out on the diving board….

How amazing to discover that I can find purpose and a silver lining even in this dark place…. And soon it won’t be dark at all!

What is your purpose? Are you running from it? And is that making your happy….? Something to think about. Anyone want to leap with me?

B.G. Thomas

photograph by Matthew Hull at morgueFile.


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